sad day, sad thoughts.

just wish me and my cat child could move to japan so bad. like tomorrow. like i quit my job and we pack up my valuables and i work in a restaurant or a farm and me and carrie live in a cute place with nice amenities and we can sit outside and eat good food and enjoy the fresh air and pokemon cafe and pokemon center and peace and quiet and we could live our best lives. i can travel the whole width of the country and see nature and eat good food. i have done everything wrong. i feel like i have failed at life and carrie so we won't ever get to enjoy the good life. i took off work today, i just couldn't handle it today. don't know if tomorrow will be any better.